'It appears as if lady luck has decided to pay me a visit this weekend, by first visiting Claire with a severe case of menstrual cramps. Normally she would have me fetching and doing her bidding every minute, but her stomach cramps were so bad Grandma Setie forced her to spend the afternoon by her after taking her up to the clinic in Simms to make sure she wasnt pregnant. My grandma came from those generation of no nonsense women who didnt mess around or 'mince' a single word. You should have seen the look on Claire's face when Grandma told her to go and get ready for the clinic. I may be a lemon, but when it comes to Grandma Setie, you do as you were told.

Now I know you may be wondering...why havent i her about what's been going on between Claire and I, and the simple truth of the matter is, Claire and I are the only thing left of her daughter, our mom, and I didnt want to burden her with my woes. Besides, she had enough health problems of her own with her 'suger' and 'high blood pressure', and ive over heard the doctor saying any stress would be bad for her heart. How could I cause the death of someone else yet so close to me? Im not going to do it.....i cant do it..i wont do it...God will make a way...he has to..ive tried, cried and prayed and he must have heard by now...

but anyway, back to my one glorius weekend..Claire spent the weekend by Grandma, who only lives a short track road down from us, and Dad had his friends visiting from the pub, so I was free to do what i want like a bird. I went to the beach and Adderley's plantation near Stella Morris, Long Island where I watched the turtles crawled along the edges of the sand and then swam out to sea, I had my metal detector with me to see if I could pick up any signals from the old slavery plantation...i had to make sure i was careful stepping around any broken bottles or overgrown brambles, and then I went to the blue hole near the stella morris highway to see if i could spot any fishes or signs of life lurking in the depths...and do you know what the best part of my weekend was?

I had Nathan with me.



love Sam.