muddoes jed...why he just didnt tell me he didnt wanna stay, it would have avoided or totally eliminated all this grief, its not fair i put my all into him and our relationship, my time, my energy, my love, my hopes, my dreams, my desires...*sighs* i knew he was too good to be true...wait! so that means that the thing we so called "love" was a lie... hmmmm its scary to know that ur living a lie.

well im really tired of being a victum of this kindda lifestyle... i knew there was a reason why i wasnt interested or anxious to get into a relationship at that point or even EVER...i guess i forgot and made a stupid decision...im sorry for ever thinking that u were 'The One' for me what the hell was i thinking...

Is it wrong that i feel so stupid?
Is it wrong to feel as though its my fault?

n e way i just have to see what happens now