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May God grant you the desires of your heart and make all your plans succeed! Stick with it my friend because something good, something incredible, something unbelievable is about to happen to you. Never give up hope.
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A Bone To Pick With Death Who told you? You could simply take what you wanted Without asking Like some brazen tone dead robber Breaking through the front door In broad daylight If eternity means nothing to you Couldn’t you have least waited until nightfall? Oh no You just go ahead and take what you want At a split’s moment notice sometimes Greed so excessive, so hollow You don’t give time to grieve Or inklings for a proper goodbye Pushing and poking Your nose into places Where you’re clearly not wanted With no regard to anyone’s feelings But your own How could you be so callous? Stand down I beg you, stand down And give love a fighting chance. By Candy AdderleyDawe Taken from my book 'Not By Bread Alone' http://stores.lulu.com/store.php?fAcctID=944010
Tags: Livelifedeathdepressionpoetry
Ive finished uploading my poetry book into LuLu and getting it ready for the market place. My book of poems is called ‘Not By Bread Alone’ and has a volume of poems from childhood to present day….some are sad, humourous, edgy and down right disturbing. it is meant to soothe the mind, stir the soul and fire up dreams.
You can find it at http://www.lulu.com/content/3356037
with a sneak preview included. Thanks to everyone who’ve always beleived that I could..I count it my blessings to call you a friend Candy AdderleyDawe
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Forgive me for stating the bleeding obvious here but isn't it funny how one's mood can change as rapidly as the weather? Take yesterday for instance in Cambridgeshire, I know everything turned out all right in the end and there were smiles all around, but in the morning, there was a brief period of 'hit and miss' where you didn’t know what was going on, and i was as miserable as the weather! I’ve been waiting for my decision letter to come back from the UK nursing council, and how many of us can agree that when you’re waiting on something, it seems to take FOREVER? yes i know, that's how i feel. and while ive been waiting, ive been working on my second book to keep me occupied. Sometimes successfully, and then again like yesterday sometimes not. waiting is never easy. it's a game of skill and mind over matter... but today looks gorgeous so far so im not going to sit at my computer and drip salty tears into my keyboard today....oh no...im going to catch the bus into town and see if i cant find something local to do while i wait....hope you have a gorgeous day as well and never for a second forget....just how unforgettable you are..
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Have you ever heard that something spectacular begins to happen on the cellular level when you start to beleive God with all of your heart for something? Well I did and guess what? I proved it without a shadow of a doubt that God is true, his word is pure and that he will send angels by your side whenever youre down or afraid. Perhaps I’d better explain. The last time I spoke to you I was about to board a British Airways flight for a nine and a half hours flight home to The Bahamas and I wasnt too happy about it. I met up with my friend the day before for coffee and a round of prayers and then my other friend met up with me in my home that evening for another chat and herbal spray that I could take midair on the flight. But my medications werent kicking in and I was trying hard to take God literally at his word that he would protect me and watch over me. I had my television on to any christian station I could find as I packed, and even up the minute my husband dropped me off to the airport and forcibly unclinged me from his shirt, I still wasnt sure I was going. But I checked in okey…in a daze was more like it, and made my way for the waiting area. You should have seen me there all calm and serene and flicking nonchantly through my newspaper Then it happened. They started to annouce the first boarding call for passengers traveling on BA Flight253, May 31st,2008, 10am to Nassau, Bahamas final stop to the Cayman Islands and everything in me saw red. I grabbed up my phone and frantically called my husband ( who by some wisdom wasnt going to leave the airport until id actually got on the plane) and told him to come get me NOW becuase i was not about to board this big ‘thing’. He calmly told me to go to one of the airstewardness before the lines started and to tell them i was a nervous flyer. I told him thank you I would do that and ring him right back. Fat chance! He told me I could do it while he was still on the phone. The man was so unto me!I was really jammed now. I tentatively made my way over the boarding desk, started to say something and promptly burst into tears. I could have whipped myself i was so mortified. But the tears wouldnt stop coming! I kept crying and crying while the poor woman managed to pry it out of me that I was terrified of flying and if I didnt get on that plane RIGHT Now there was no chance in hell of getting me on it later on. She gently led me down the long walkway before the other passengers settled on and radioed ahead that she was bringing a lady in distress with her. I did okay until we banked the corner and caught a glimpse of the plane open door. I broke away from the lady, jammed myself into a corner , burst into a fresh load of tears and refused to move one inch. The chief air stewardness had to come out to speak to me and after a long talk between sniffles and my now concerned and convinced husband on the other end, I made it unto the plane where the stewardess said i could sit near her so she could keep an eye on me. She went to get me some water, I rest my head gingerly against the seat, felt the engine rumbling beneath and made a beeline for the door. The stewardess came behind me and in the end the pilot, Caption Sarah- God bless you madam - came out to see what all the fuss was about and to talk to me. When she looked me in the eyes and held her hand out in mines something in me went still. I meekly followed her back on board that plane again like a lamb following its mother around the pasture. A deep part of me on some spiritual level instinctively trusted and beleived everyword that she told me. The chief stewardness - God bless you too madam - sat with me for the landing and taking off of the plane and the whole crew was so wonderful to me I cant begin to describe it. It was being a part of a family and thats why I have always and will always only fly British Airways if I can help it. The staff was one in a million and when we touched down in Nassau, 9 hours later, the pilot gave me a hug on the way out and i could have kissed her in sheer joy and elation I was sooo happy to be home. People have always talked about angels roaming here on earth and for the first time in my life, I know exactly what they mean, because on that BA253 flight, I truelly met an angel. Lots of them to be exact and they showed without a shadow of a doubt that they truelly care and could go way beyond the call of duty on their jobs. Im so sorry for all the trouble that I caused but am so glad that I put my hand in yours Caption Sarah and followed you on board. You gave me my life back. I got to see my family again for the first time since i came to England 3 years and for the first time ever in my life as well, Im not afriad to fly. I didnt take any medication on my journey back. Thank you British Airways. May God bless and keep you. May he shine his loving arms around your company and staff and give you peace and many years of prosperity. Candy Adderley Dawe
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Tommorow at 9:10 am I am going to do something that I havent done in the three years since Ive been in England : get on a plane for home in The Bahamas. Now I know you must be thinking wow, whoa, how could a person spend such a long time away from a place they love? But if you struggle with a fear of flying and dying like I do then the question becomes self explanatory. I cannot begin to tell you the amount of people over the course of my three years here who have all given me their five cents worth on the joy of flying and how safe airports and airplanes are these days. But anyone with an irrational fear will tell you just how useless such talks and advise are….we nod our heads appropiately, smile accordingly and wander off in my minds to some safer place. Now I know, based on all that i have just said, why Im contemplating getting on a plane again or how for heavens sake did i ever make it to England in the first place. I flew of course, clutching my chest with my bible in my hands picturing the love on my partner’s face when i made it through on the other end. But i have watched countless plane crash movies since then and drastic news stories that make me never want to leave my house again and I said to myself either I can spend the rest of my life in fear or I can step out with a leap of faith and my trust in God. Id like to go to heaven of course, but preferably after Id had my kids, watch them grow up, move to the country and lose all my teeth ehehe. Especially not before Ive seen my first royalty check. Ive taken my antianxiety meds, ive had all my friends over praying for me and wishing me luck, ive even kept the tv on the God channel and change some of my money over in american travellers’ cheques. But I havent packed my bags yet or print out my eticket that i bought via BA online. I did however ring BA three times in two days to find out what they did for nervous flyers and how much money they reckon i could get back if i cancel my ticket in time. ONe button and all my troubles and worries would be instantly over…never minding that i will lose uo to 800 pounds in fees! Do you know how I feel? I feel like someone who’s on death row and they have been told that they will walk to the gas chambers by the end of the week…so everything i do and taste is like im dead already and theres no point or use to anything. My chest aches, my head hurts, my lungs feel like it’s on fire, the roof of my mouth is dry, ive drunk a bottle of champagne with my med to no effect..nothing is getting through to me…its like…thinking youre going off a cliff and people are telling you ooo dont worry about it…have some alcohol or meds to numb your pain on the way done….no one understands what im going through…except for one of my good friends who have given up flying herself… of course id like to see my family and friends again in the Bahamas…swim in the sea for a change…lay on a beach…have home made food..but i cant get pass those 8 hours that idbe stuck in the air on a plane…why am i putting myself through this when i can just press a button and make everything go away…i hate these condescending people most of all who make soothing noises and say oo it will be alright…flying is safer than driving….well who gives a monkey butt what is safer than what…i prefer to be on the ground thank you.. will i go through with it…honestly…at this moment…i dont know…i would love to…i would love to hear that announcement…welcome to nassau international airport…id kiss the ground hundred times over and chant to my God..but i think im going to need something much more stronger…my imagination has gone overboard…way overboard…please say a prayer for me if you can and remember too…and if im still alive by tommorow evening… i thank you with all of my heart… now its time to pack my bags before these meds wear off completely!
Tags: Fear Flying Planes England Anxiety Stress God Prayers
Hello everyone, Sorry ive been away so long, but I ran into my gardening fork while trying to transplant some roses over the weekend and had to spend up to nearly 3 hours in the Accident and Emergency Department and nearly a week off work! Ooo yes. You would have thought that I would have more sense and look where I was going, or better yet not go gardening barefeet in the first place. But it was so nice and sunny, and the breeze so sweet and low that it just got to my head, and i simply didnt look where i was going. So Ive been sitting with my feet up at home feeling sorry for myself. I should be able to go back to work on Tuesday life spares. But Im not really looking forward to it. Is there some way I can get bucket loads of money to fall out of the sky?heehe.. hope you had a good weekend too
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have NO hold over your soul. They have no access to it, cannot move or direct it. It is moved and directed by itself alone. It takes the things before it and interprets them as it sees fit. ‘from Meditations by Marcus Arelius’
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You are complete "Everything you need you already have. You are complete right now, you are a whole, total person, not an apprentice person on the way to someplace else." -- Wayne Dyer Close your eyes and imagine that everything you have and everything you are is enough. You don’t need to be better or different -- you’re great just as you are. Can you experience the peace and contentment that owning that perspective brings? Moving into such total acceptance does not mean that we stop growing. When we can accept who we are now, we open the doors to our own inspiration to do and be even more! "Who you really are is enough." -- Oriah Mountain Dreamer "Wherever you are is always the right place. There is never a need to fix anything, to hitch up the bootstraps of the soul and start at some higher place. Start right where you are." -- Julia Cameron
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